I found the Lance Armstrong drama interesting because as a former bicycle racer, I followed the big races for years. I read his book, and was impressed that he created his nonprofit for cancer. Now, he has admitted to drugs and blood transfusions, confessing to the public on Oprah. As a healer, rather than judging him, I have enjoyed watching the patterns of consciousness that come up for humanity to heal as a result of his exposure. I admire the souls in bodies who come to the planet to help us heal big paradigm pictures that limit our evolution as beings. In this apocalyptic time of Revelations, it’s hard to keep anything secret.
We are offered front row viewing of people getting caught in circumstances most of us dread. It offers us a lot of fodder for judgment and condemnation. He can be judged for his drug use, his lying, his betrayal— his choice to present himself to the world in a deceitful way. But if you know that everything that happens is helping you to heal and practice forgiveness, then people who create these challenging moral dramas can be our best teachers! Imagine being a spirit and choosing to reincarnate into a life that will help mass consciousness heal, but your contribution isn’t all cuddly and welcomed like a Hallmark card. It’s raw and real, your pain is on display under a spotlight for all to see. We see more and more of this, from the people who create dramas in our government, to shootings, misuse of money, food and health care scandals and more.
Who needs “reality” TV? Instead of deciding to hate Lance Armstrong, look at what he did and reflect on how you do the same thing in your own life. He created a persona based on lying and denial and ended up hurting people in the process. Don’t we all do that? When we aren’t true and honest with ourselves, we bring ourselves down, and often hurt those near to us as well. We may not do these things on the magnitude of a world class athlete or celebrity. But we can notice where we ignore our truth in favor of what we can to do to get the attention, approval and recognition that we think we need.
When I look at that in myself, it is easy for me to look at Armstrong with empathy, and be grateful for the opportunity to forgive him, and see more than his actions. Then, I do the same for myself, and a lot of healing happens all around! This ties in with a fun concept to explore—are you walking this world in a persona that is built from the outside-in and therefore meet others with the intent of trying to sell who you are? Or are you walking in a persona that is built from trust and love of yourself from within?
If so, you are more service-oriented and curious with others rather than being in the mode of proving something about yourself, or worrying about how you appear, or who you should be to get approval. You can see the pattern in Armstrong and how it resulted in a lot of pain for himself and others. But isn’t it the perfect plan for him? If he died in those lies, he would be stuck in them and have to return next life to work them out. Now he has no choice but to reflect on his life and discover more about who he truly is. The doors of athletic hero and celebrity have closed.
The only solution to his pain is healing himself from the inside and proceeding in life from a place of inner value, not having to please his million dollar sponsors and fans. Of course he may only heal a percentage of it all, but that is his choice and path. In the mean time, what can we learn from him and heal within ourselves? As we present ourselves to the world in these bodies, we each have our unique personality and style that we need not abandon! This is about intention. This is a feeling and experience of ourselves, and our ability to live in the world from a personal sense of worthiness and satisfaction that comes from a connection with Divinity versus our worthiness being dependent on what we have, how our body looks, or how many degrees we have on the wall. Ultimately, whatever we have placed value on that is outside of ourselves will fall away.
We each have our own mini versions of the Armstrong scenario—the things we have done, bought or tried in order to feel better about ourselves, only to discover that they are born from the lies we tell ourselves that say we are not enough just as we are. This doesn’t mean we should ignore what we do or wear or have. It does mean taking time to meditate and to check in with our motivations and intentions, calibrating our actions with our personal spiritual truth. Most of these patterns come from childhood, from those moments when we had no choice but to create a protective response to our surroundings that would make us feel safe and loved. When we shifted into 2013, people began to be triggered big time around these childhood patterns, and it can feel emotionally over-whelming, physically draining and/or mentally confusing.
As we each forgive ourselves, and learn to love and see more in another than they can show us, we bring healing not only to ourselves but to all on the planet. May you feel blessed and supported on your path!
Rev. Hope Hewetson has been teaching and reading for over 25 years. Call Hope for a reading or healing at 303-530-0232, or email her at firstname.lastname@example.org.